Did it. Did something that I was scared of. The moment I've been imagining for two months happened at once. I just did it. With no doubt. Like it was the most truthful decision in my life. And I know I did good 'cause it feels good.

     Now what are you going to do? I never know your reaction, I can not predict your behaviour. I don't know what you're thinking about and how do you feel about me. This makes me mad. You make me mad. I don't recognise myself when I'm talking to you. I know that I can't demand you to be tender but I just want you to be kind. I'm asking you to be honest and a little respectful to me. "Cause sometimes words can hurt.

     And if you're feeling the same by chance than I'm the happiest girl in the whole world. I'm afraid even to think abot OUR future 'cause I'm still not sure that WE exist. And if we do you'd better take my hand 'cause I'm gonna run with you wherever you need, I'm gonna fly with you whenever you want, I'm gonna breathe you. I just wanna see life in your eyes. In your eyes....

It feels like I could stare in them forever.

memories from my past..

I can’t clean my room because I always get distracted by the cool stuff I find. This time I found my old notebook, where my memories were kept. Here is a very  faithful poem from my past. I wrote it myself because it was my imagination of an ideal future.

btw, it’s in Ukrainian

help me to breathe..

Can you tell me what exactly do I need? I feel so empty. This emptiness must be filled with something. I’m waiting for a huge feeling that will cover me at all. I don’t mean love, friendship or great party, I want something that will inspire me to live and to breathe. I don’t really care what that will be. I just need it even more than life ‘cause my life depends on it. If you know how to describe the thing I need just describe it.  If you know where I can find this just draw the map for me. If you can give me this just give! I would be so grateful. And I’ll owe you, I promise. Just let me know…

dreams of my soul

Now I know how loneliness looks like..It feels so empty inside and I don’t even know how to describe this. So I’ll start from the very beginning. Three weeks ago I saw a miracle. This miracle was my little cousin. My aunt had a baby. I dreamt about this child and couldn’t wait to see her. Finally that happened and little miracle was sleeping on my arms. I couldn’t breathe when I saw her first time. She was so tiny and so beautiful!! It was first time I saw newborn baby. Happy Aunt asked me to be Godmother. And I was. Maybe I am the best Godmother in the world, maybe I’m not, but it’s unforgettable feeling. I was in church and promised that my little girl will always be kind and generous, smart and beautiful. It sounded like future prediction that must happen! After ceremony baby got a name. It’s Sophie. Since then this name has become my favorite. Three weeks lasted like one day. My aunt with my little god-daughter packed their bags and went away. They went home. They live far away from me so I said Goodbye in train. Sophie was staring at me. Her big blue eyes were so kind and warm. I hugged my Aunt and kissed baby’s hand. I would swear I saw her smiling. And then they left. And I was standing on the platform. And it was snowing. I cried. Those tears meant I really loved her. I miss her so much and dream to see her one more time.. I believe she’ll come to me as soon as possible. So the only thing I have to do is waiting…..

about true feeling*

She's never felt this way before...She was afraid of this feeling because she didn't know was it real or not.Year ago, when she had seen him first time, she realized that it would be something new for her. Mostly she wanted him to notice her and he did! But it wasn't enough. Then she forgot about him but did he? However, after long separation, she was looking forward to seeing with him. And it happend. She felt the same again. She was angry with herself about it. She thought that she can't afford living with this unknown feeling. Finally, she has almost never seen him. And when she refused from him he stood by her just out of nowhere and she couldn't resist him any more. It looked like he understood her minds and agreed on it. His deep eyes expressed so much love and care that she couldn't just look away and go by. Today it has happened. She came to him in order to do anything she'll be thinking about. The closer she came the stronger attraction she felt. And they were standing in silence and nothing happened at all.....But since that minute she has felt the strongest attraction ever and those butterflies in her stomach made her happy and furious at once. Nobody knows what will happen. But they both have hope..Otherwise butterflies will be killed...

to be continued..

Today's a Find Day!!) At least for me) I found my childhood photos. What a cute baby was I!!) Every single photo is in black and white tones like from last century.....And then I realised that they are!! Really, I'm not so old as you might think but these photos turned me back to the Past, when I was a baby and my parents were so young and happy like they'd never been before! Everything seemed so easy then...I wish I could have turned back! But time passed and everything's changed. We''ll never be those ones, we are who we are today. Appreciate every second of your life 'cause it may be something that you will never feel again!

Intro.

At first I'd like to tell about the name of my blog.Hmmm...Ialways wanted to express my feelings to the world. Mostly it happend due to my friends, who understand me and believe in me. When I was little child dad used to read me fairytales. I dreamed about secret magic world of fairytales while listening to him. Once dad read me a story that definetly changed my life. It was the story about Little Mermaid, who was absolutely happy till she felt in love with human. She wanted to be with him no matter what would happen. But she had no legs so she couldn't live on the surface with him. Finally she went to evil witch. The witch suggested to exchange Mermaid's voice to human legs. Little Mermaid was disappointed but said 'yes'. Since then she lived on surface, but she was voiceless. And she couldn't express her deep feelings to anybody.....That fact changed me. Since then I've started

to appreciate every feeling, every mind and emotion. Little Mermaid started to live in my heart. That's why my blog has her name....She was the first who showed me the sense of our lives........